What Will It Take?!
Why do we have it stuck in our heads that unless we are experiencing pain, suffering and critical conditions then there is no need to motivate ourselves toward change or to improve or evolve or ways of being?
Tonight, while out skating the walkway along oceanfront, we took a seat and watched the stormy night's sky turn the color of a brilliant fire. I made the comment that it looked like a fire there behind the Port and the big rock we call Paratutu that juts out along our skyline... And he replied with something along the lines of: "Maybe it's a Supernova and it's coming to connect with earth inside 24 hours... but by 12 hours this planet will be uninhabitable.... what would you do?"
As he strung each part of the sentence together, I was sucked a little deeper into this vortex until I was sitting in total acceptance of all that is. I mean there really is no negotiating with a Supernova is there. So the only option was total surrender, and once it was chunked down to less than 12 hours the only thing left, that was worth achieving, was Enlightenment. And in the realization of that moment, an instant peak of that beginning-less, endless, never been born, never going to die, boundary-less, ever-present no-place infused it's way directly into and through my being so that there was no thought, no mind, no self, no place, no beginning, no end, nothing at all... not even the Supernova.
And then he asked what lesson I got from that... and I replied, "That it seemed such a waste to not realize that degree of awakening while fully present and embodied in this physical form... the ultimate experience of Being and Becoming, being there while getting there, fully turned on and tapped in. Why must we wait for the Supernova of life to bowl us from the game before we realize the depth our own capacity and potential?"
It was just a game. A game that posed a different perspective on the nature of reality, one that stirred more deeply within me the tumultuous frustration of waking up. Sometimes it feels like a new person is clawing her way out of this consciousness, emerging from within a dark, chaotic place to a new, more highly ordered and expanded way of seeing. On days like this it feels all very new and exciting, sometimes invincible, sometimes laced with complete ok-ness that is fully comfortable that I really don't know... and on these days everything is in divine and perfect order, regardless of the outcome we may be heading for. On these days, even Enlightenment seems easy! Other days, there is a deep identification with chaos and needless movement. And on these days, nothing is easy, nothing flows or feels at all comfortable.
These are the days that are showing us the importance of a consistent and persistent sitting practice. A sitting practice that helps us to develop our witnessing capacity - our ability to turn inward and notice that we have feelings and thoughts, but that we are more than these. To be identified as the stuff that goes around in our conditioned minds is a massive state of mistaken identity and one that leads us only into chaos and disorder or pain and suffering or drama and hysteria. It doesn’t have to be this way… we just need to really grow up now… it really is time.
We are the Seer - we are the one we have been looking for. Sill, calm.
To sit in the place of the Seer and watch what it is we are creating, to create some space and allow a little room for flow... opens us into a more joyful, bliss-filled way of being. When there is room for flow in the mind, there is room for flow in the body and in physical life. To create this room for flow is to become mindful that we are more than the physical and not just what we can see. And we don't need to wait for chaos to come... we can move forward to meet peace instead.
Once we wrap our mind around this and grow up into a more subtle way of life, then we are starting to tap into the deeper capacity of our potential. Now we can be pro active. There's no need to keep going to the marrow when we can move forward with our eyes wide open. The mind controls the brain and the intuition guides the heart and with an equal partnership of intelligence we evolve to another level and create a consciousness that is fully embodied and awake at a level we haven’t yet seen so far in the history of humanity… but it’s potentially possible… if we act as if a Supernova really is heading our way and it really is time to WAKE UP!
Imagine how life on our planet could be different if we really did grow up before it was critical???? What would it take? Could you do your part? Would you do your part? WHEN???