This world is simply a complicated place. I hope its not beginning to end. I'll need to stop going round in circles like some square. I'd rather be hypnotized into being self aware. I feel numb to feeling. No emotion exists in me. The only artificial dreams I make are those that leave my finger tips. I may not be able to dance but my fingers can. To play, is to be. Synthesizing emotions I cannot obtain naturally. Playing obscure keys to get what cannot be felt. That, is why I play guitar.
Peace in my mind is enjoying who I am and who I can be. I try to change my past when I feel my future is predestined. I want to make people happy and be the best I can be. I wish I could feel. The few, brief moments I have felt alive have been making others their happiest. It's a mystical way of looking at it but I am embracing what you can for as long as I live.
Peace - Alex